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Tuesday, January 19th, 2010
11:12 am	100 Truths Boring, but I'm bored. And boring lol 1. Real name: Jacqueline 2. Nickname(s): Jackie, Thing 2, or the plethora of ones Dad uses for any one of us such as Dingbat. I'm Ding, Carrie's Bat. 3. Zodiac sign: Cancer 4. Male or female: female 5. Elementary: Greenwood Elementary, Bremerhaven Elementary, Sacred Heart. 6. Middle School: Didn't have one. 7. High School: Weaver High, St. Bernard Prep. 8. Hair color: Reddish. It's turning more brown though T^T And and.. I SAW A BLONDE HAIR! D: So I pulled it out :D 9. Long or short : Shoulder length now, but I too miss it long. 10. Loud or Quiet: Generally quiet. Even when I babble and talk your ear off it's not generally loud. And yes.. yes I do talk a lot. ( Am I supposed to cut here, or did you just do it for fun? lol Oh well ) (Comment on this)
Friday, December 18th, 2009
7:46 am	Thank you, museanon, for giving me a heart attack first thing in the morning. Please don't ever mention my muses like that again, especially Mizzy. She'll get hate and I don't want to see it. Thankfully, what was said was tame. HOPEFULLY, they'll get to a new page soon and forget that thread's there. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 11th, 2009
8:34 am	Good fucking god, Cindy. Just shut the fuck up today. It's much more peaceful, quiet, when you're not here. Shut up, shut up, shut up. I can't deal with you today. (Comment on this)
8:07 am	Today's a fucking horrible day and I'm done with it. It's only 8 am... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 9th, 2009
7:55 am	How can something that hasn't even been released yet be out of print already? :| (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009
11:42 am	I've had this song on repeat for the last hour and a half >.>;; Nooot going to get sick of it any time soon. Geez... I'm enjoying my moments of peace. NO ONE is here right now. I'm the only person in the building. I was having a rough morning, woke up at 5:30 because I was very very very.. SAD. I don't know what I was dreaming. As far as I know, I wasn't. Not a very pleasant experience. Work kinda sucked but then everyone left :3 And I downloaded this song. And now I'm happy :3 There was an issue this morning. I don't know what happened exactly, only that there was a lady on the voicemail threatening a lawyer and some other CRAZY shit. Whatever happened, it got straightened out and boss-lady Diane called the lady back, but only got HER voicemail. So.. of course when no one's around, the lady calls. She was LIVID when I answered. Took me a min or two to figure out she was the lady from this morning. By the time I was done with her, aaaaall the hostility was gone from her voice. She was very pleasant and even thanked me before we hung up. I am so awesome. hehehe Current Music: 2PM - I'm tired of waiting (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 27th, 2009
11:13 am	( Another meme done out of boredom. Thanks Amy ) (Comment on this)
11:10 am	Stolen from somebody who stole it from someone else. All the cool kids are doing it. Name a muse of mine and I'll answer these. I'm betting no one will want to know though :P Considering I don't want to know these for anyone else's haha I'm just bored >.> 01. Full name 02. Best friend 03. Sexuality 04. Favorite color 05. Relationship status 06. Ideal mate 07. Turn-ons 08. Last sexual experience 09. Favorite food 10. Crushes 11. Favorite music 12. Biggest fear 13. Biggest fantasy 14. Quirks in bed 15. Bad habits 16. Biggest regret 17. Best kept secrets 18. Last thought 19. Worst sexual/romantic experience 20. Biggest insecurity (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 15th, 2009
9:54 am	Boredom = meme time, right? ( whee... ) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 30th, 2009
2:34 pm	SO!!!! I'm in a good mood today. Good moods are good. I don't have anything else to go with that but after looking back in my lj and seeing the lack of updates that weren't me being cranky at the world... I figured I needed one. Oh! I never posted this. Don't be ashamed to laugh at my pain. I know you will. I do every time I see it. My life is rough. XD Ignore my messy hair.... it's.. the evening and yeah. Plus he started doing that before Tess started filming.. that didn't help. Also... ehhh it's just bad. :| Oh well, who cares. I'm in my cave, leave me alone. lol (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 16th, 2009
11:53 am	oookay today's gonna be one of THOSE days, hm? Gotcha. So I woke up at 4 something, convinced I'd overslept and was gonna be late for work. Rolled over and saw the light flooding my room was from the computer.. I'd fallen asleep without turning the monitor off. I don't remember the dream I had before that. The dream after? Was weird. Tess and I were wandering around... some place. Not sure? It... seemed kinda like Fareway (local grocery store), but in layout only. No food there that I noticed. Back in the back... there was a bathroom? And.. Tess found a grenade in it? And we were like "why's there a grenade way up in the mountains?" Apparently we were in the mountains? There are none in Iowa though..... lmao So then Tess closed the door to actually USE the bathroom and some... bobcat-like creature showed up. It didn't attack her but it was definitely threatening? So.. Tess called the Red Cross and asked them if they had any more rescue teams because one was needed... and then threw the grenade at the cat-thing. Then calmly walked out of the bathroom before the grenade exploded. A man and a woman came just after that. They saw the inside of the bathroom, which.. just had a pool of blood. like something had been stabbed, not blown to bits. They thought it was Tess instead of a cat... so we snuck out while they discussed how much the fees for this would be. They kept adding more, saying it didn't matter since the person who was supposed to pay the bill was now dead. THEN! We wandered around... some place that had a mall. It was HOT outside so we wanted to go someplace air conditioned.. Tess decided on the movie theater. Except we had to watch the movie RIGHT THEN. But all the good movies didn't start until later. So we got tickets to see ... Benji. As in.. the dog. As in... there is no such movie that I'm aware of? lol We had to wait like.. 5 minutes, so we went off to the food court. Where we met Heidi Klum. Who knew she ate food court crap? So I sat down with her and we were just chatting away and she asked what we were doing. When I told her, she lightheartedly teased us about the movie. "BENJI?? You're going to watch BENJI? What, they wouldn't let you in the PG-13 movies?" yeah I dunno lmao. But Tess was restless and started jogging up and down the hallway. I groaned and was like "There she goes again.. running around." Then my mom and brothers showed up, but they were younger than they really are. And mom say with Heidi and I and we discussed pizza. And then my alarm went off. What? lmao So then I zombied off to work... waking up like.. half an hour after I got here lol and then I was really snuggly/clingy/lovey (thank you, muse) buuuuut that didn't last long... and then I was crying. (thank you, muse) NOW I'm really tired because crying does that to me. Ugh. Nap time? (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 11th, 2009
7:05 am	I have a craving for pancakes. Not just any pancakes... my dad's buttermilk pancakes. Best things ever. It's really not that random a thought... Feeling kinda down today. The thoughts... who should post them? Your mood is leaking into mine. It's like syrup from two pancakes on a plate, meeting in the center and mingling. Mmm pancakes... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 8th, 2009
9:13 am	I'm at a really, really, really weird place in my head right now. How can you feel both proud and determined at the same time you're feeling like a worthless loser and a failure? I'd blame the muses because there's one kinda like the former and one kinda like the latter, but... it started before they got to those respective places. I haven't cried in forever and not every tiny thing's making me completely break down. I'm supposed to go out for a drink tonight. Noooot in the mood for that. Especially since Cindy's going. Who had the bright idea to invite her?? It's supposed to be celebrating the fact that we got shit caught up already. But... That was all Diane and I. Cindy had NOTHING to do with it. I've already cried at work today >.> wtf. I don't cry in public. Thankfully no one saw me. I hope. As much as I feel like a fuck up right now, I keep telling myself I'll be where I want to be in a year or two. I just need to be patient. I spent 8 years floundering and fucking up. I'm done flailing. My mom's proud of me, but I'm not proud of me yet. Someday it won't be such an uphill battle. "Nothing in life will ever come that easy. Doesn't mean it has to be that hard" I'm tired of waiting for the not that hard part. I'm tired of waiting. Waiting never gets you anywhere. Every good thing always brings a bad. Stop whining about it and deal with it. lol I'm really bad at giving myself pep talks. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 31st, 2009
9:12 am	( My morning ) The two of us will have fun today hehehe Have I ever mentioned how much I love her? XD She's like.. 63? ish.. somewhere around there.. so like.. halfway between my parents and grandparents in age and just... doesn't give a SHIT about anything. She teaches online classes for Kaplan University and because Social Security is stupid and says she can't make more than a certain amount a year or she gets penalized.. she can only put down she works 3 hours a day... but actually works here 8 because.... she's bored and wants to get out of the house.. lmao So she's kinda like fuck you guys! I donate over half my time, so I can do whatever I want. lol It's great to watch. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 26th, 2009
7:43 am	Hey look! I'm alive... So... things have been crazy lately thanks to work starting back up. Currently I have 175 applications sitting on my desk ready to be processed. What came in last night is still sitting on Diane's desk to be prepped. The previously processed 475 are sitting in Bosslady Diane's office for her to sign. 476-525 are sitting in our office waiting to be added to this stupid list they're making us do this year and 525-575 are waiting to be put together and the letters mailed. All that's not counting any of the Direct Certification kids. We still have from M on to mail out. Several hundred there. Have I ever said I hated the beginning of school? lol Diane and I said fuck it this year though. We're doing it our way. It's going smoother than any other year I've been here. The first year I had NO help and was trying to do it all by myself. Well the very first year I wasn't hired until October so I missed this all hehe Last year was a HUGE MESS that took MONTHS to sort through even with two people helping me. This year, Diane and I just pwn :D Cindy's driving me fucking nuts though. Everyone online knows I hate her haha but really... she's... argh! People are calling and asking about their applications, whether they've been processed or not because they're being charged for lunches when they don't think they should be. Well like I said... We're working on it... We're really not far behind for all that whining I did. A day and a half behind? Which isn't behind at all, really. I CAN process 125 apps a day IF I get no phone calls and emails but when Cindy's not in the office to answer phones, guess who gets to? Yeah so... I've been averaging about.... 50 a day. only fucking 50. It's frustrating the hell out of me. The other day I worked from 7:30-11:30 JUST ANSWERING EMAILS. Came in to work and had 46. By 9:30 I STILL had 43 because I kept getting more. So stupid :| ANYWAY!! Why Cindy's driving me nuts... So people call asking about apps. So instead of telling them that we DO technically have 10 days to process each app, she goes and makes me LOOK for it. Uh.. yeah, I want to look through a couple hundred apps to see if we have one. THEN if I do find it, she wants me to process it RIGHT THEN AND THERE. Thus putting it out of order and throwing off the whole system Diane and I have set up. I do love Diane flipping Cindy off all the time hehe Cindy could be an RP mun... seriously.. She's always like OMG!1! DRAMAZ!!! Diane and I just shake our heads and say things like "Well now we know why it's so hot in our office all the time... All the hot air blowing in from out there..." So I finally told her we weren't going to give ANY apps priority anymore. It takes too much time. If you want things done faster, you COULD help.. Pfft whatever. Soooo by the time I get home, it's really hit or miss if I feel up to being part of the world or not. Most likely, I WILL be irritated and fairly short tempered. The muses have suffered because of this. I SHOULD have put them all on hiatus (omg is it hard to NOT type it wrong XD) when I went back to work, but I thought I could handle it. Obviously I forgot what work does to me. And it's not just work. There's poor roomie too ;o; I want to just go "Be healed!" and have her magically fixed. Nothing I can do but sit here and go T^T all the time which I'm sure gets annoying. I annoy myself with it. Soo.... It's not that I stopped caring! I just.. don't want to be annoying >.>; And I'm tired of everyone asking me how she is. I know they're just being nice and caring but... NO CHANGE, PEOPLE! STOP ASKING. :| I'll tell you if it changes :P Oh... and if I AM short with people, I'm sorry... I don't mean to be. I guess this is mostly for lovely roomie. T^T I swear I'm not really giving you the cold shoulder when I get home. I'm just stressed and trying to unwind and have nothing to say that's not complaining and and... yeah, sorry ;o; omg this is getting long... sorry guys :x On the up side... Is there an up side? Oh yes! So yesterday morning magebane messages me and said he and littlekarichan were talking and decided they wanted me to come out there sometime during my winter break. I haven't seen him since the wedding and having seen her since.. last winter break lol So Mom's for Thanksgiving since Dad'll be in Afghanistan by then :( I think it'd be nice if Carrie could come home too, but working in retail pretty much kills that thought hehe Then their place for some time in December. I'd originally planned to go to Mom's with kylaqueorie but for financial issues that's not gonna happen :( Ugh. Just another stress causing issue. I'm trying really hard not to, but... It's invading my dreams now lol After January, things will look better on that front. I've just got to make it that long lol Can we jump to next year already? I'm so done with this one. .....yeah as I was typing this in between phone calls, Cindy has me look through all the apps again to find one stupid kid. HAVE PATIENCE PEOPLE! WE'LL GET TO YOUR APPLICATION WHEN WE GET TO IT! I'M JUST ONE PERSON. And fuck you Cindy for making everything need to be done RIGHT NOW. Could she not see while she was looking at me that I was on the phone fixing yet another fuck up on our leads' parts? God I'm so sick of them already this year. I've fixed so many of their stupid and careless mistakes. HOW can you split a $60 check in two... 60/30? Twice? Makes no sense. No wonder it takes me until bedtime to unwind if I'm already seething this early in the morning. Fuck you, world. ahaha I gave Diane a little heads up about the state of things before she came in... [09:27] Me: The app Cindy had me dig for... I found it in the stuff that came in yesterday. I told her too bad. We'd get to it when we got to it [09:27] Diane: Good for you -- what did she say? [09:28] Me: She kinda looked at me funny "....okay." [09:28] Diane: Don't those two realize that digging through all those F****ng applications just slows down the process [09:30] Diane: Well, I'm signing off -- headed out the door. Do you want me to bring along a 'bottle' -- we could really get the applications approved if we took a few swigs !! CU soon I do so love her~ (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009
9:18 am	There's nothing like being woken up at 7 am because you're too hot... I wish the tree in front of our apartment reached my window.. that makes a HUGE difference in the temps of the rooms. The living room and cat room are both way cooler than mine in part because they don't get nearly the morning sun my room gets. I hate the summer. I've never handled heat well and I don't even want to get started on humidity. I can't BREATHE in that shit. Nothing like falling asleep because you can't breathe. Nothing like waking up because you can't either. Short, shallow breaths don't hurt like normal ones, but then I get dizzy because that's not enough oxygen hehe. My life's awesome. :| (Comment on this)
Monday, May 25th, 2009
10:16 am	YA-KYIM I... have been listening to the same 30 seconds of promo song over and over for the last.. uh... long time >.<; I'm torn!! I like it, I really do. Otherwise I wouldn't have been listening to it for this long. But at the same time I'm just kinda screaming in my head "WHAT DID THEY DO TO MY BABIES??" I'm looking at them and going "Oh god... they took fashion lessons from the Koreans..." Neon. Non matching neon. Now.. some people really like that. I, however, do NOT. Those 2NE1 girls? Yeah NO. Fortunately my babies' outfits are.. normal for them. Just.. neon. Except my girl.. they pulled her hair into a tight ponytail again. Why?? She's got such LOVELY hair. Leave it down, damn it. Looking at the outfits again, they're not so bad compared to how bad they COULD be, but.. *whines* And the song! It's.. totally pop. Bouncy, light, airy pop. WTF? They don't do POP. .__. It's a double A side single, so I'm hoping the other side's more their norm? This is still addicting >.>;; They have a new website and an official blog (that they've not used, so I guess it's still up to Alisa to post pics) so that's a good sign, right? Now all I have to do is wait until just after my bday T^T (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 30th, 2009
6:11 am	*insert much keyboard mashing* MIZZY FINALLY POSTED AGAIN AND OMG HER HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIR! It's even shorter than I thought it was omg! Okay, now I need to start getting ready for work >.> booo (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 13th, 2009
6:48 am	Ahhaha.. I was so wrong about sleeping well. I slept like complete SHIT. Took forever to get to sleep, tossed and turned all night... bah! At least it's raining? :3 (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 12th, 2009
11:28 pm	I don't really know why, but I feel.. GOOD.. right now. I mean, I feel content and... dare I say happy? It's kinda nice. I think I'm going to sleep well tonight. G'night, everybody~ (Comment on this)